up in the air

…ate Tin is coming to town.

vai con duole

This is your life, and it’s ending one minute at a time.

Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don’t need. We’re the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our great war is a spiritual war. Our great depression is our lives. We’ve all been raised on television to believe that one day we’d all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars, but we won’t. We’re slowly learning that fact. And we’re very, very pissed off.

 ~Fight Club

crossbody

The trouble with anticipating your next paycheck is that whatever remaining cash you have, you feel entitled to spend it to the last cent. I should seriously consider changing my pov on that. I need to start looking into my financial health. Over three years as an employed person, I still don’t have a savings account. If I die on the job, I’d burden my family with expensive memorial services. [Another One Bites the Dust~requiem] Oh man, I’d hate for that to happen. Jeez. how can I crossover if the last thought in my head is regret over money I never earned, or rather, saved?

On that note, I’d like to justify my need for a new bag.

The last one I bought from F&H was tagged PhP900 but I got it for PhP300 less. that was sometime last year. it’s beginning to peel off on the parts where the handles are attached. I can still use it, but it doesn’t really go well with corporate wear. It brings to mind a scene from Gilmore Girls where Lorelai says to Luke: ‘that’s not a bag, that’s a rag tethered together by dust.’

I browsed online & this caught my eye:

 I asked ate Tin if she can check if they have this model in Qatar. i hope they do. and more than that, I hope I can afford it. Haha! 

Adams, Streep, Ephron

I googled up these pieces of info succeding my after-shift movie dosage; last night/rather, at 2am we watched Julie & Julia–from the same writer/director who gave us When Harry Met Sally, You’ve Got Mail & Sleepless in Seattle.

~Amy Adams stands 5′3″ She’s 35 but looks anything but. I first saw her on ‘Enchanted’
~Julia Child stood 6′2″; Meryl Streep is only 5′6″ tall. Jane Lynch, (the cunning Sue Sylvester in Glee) plays Julia’s sister, Dorothy.
~Lynch is a gigantic 6ft flat.

weekend reels

Avatar
Genre: Sci-Fi
Director: James Cameron
Cast: Sigourney Weaver, Sam Worthington, Zoe Saldana 

It’s Complicated
Genre: Comedy
Director:Nancy Meyers
Cast:Meryl Streep, Steve Martin, Alec Baldwin, John Krasinski, Lake Bell

 Over our unexplained fresh addiction to Cheese Curls we watched these flicks on our waking moments. I’m loving the eat-sleep-catch a movie-routine.

autumn rhythm

  If we had autumn, it’d be as beautiful as that: a multitude of leaves escaping and falling on little hands and heads. These children finish their lunches hastily and heads to the open courts lined with trees. The winds were incessant, so was their laughter.

They were to be scolded by the homeroom teacher, what with all the soiled uniforms, sweat, & hair in disarray. They were to be lectured on Religion, and how, by believing that you can wish upon a leaf caught before its fall, you are insulting God.

The teacher will not think of the consequence of her words.

The children will be men, and know the meaning of crisis.
 

down

Regina is always in my head. How can I possibly think up a poem?
There has been a general shortage of literary brainfarts, forgive me. I have flashes of scenes from a movie, morsels of lines from a song, and it’s so beautiful & painful these pangs of borrowed vision & breathed words… I am overwhelmed & I can’t function this way.

I’m feeling down. It’s the not knowing that kills me.
*             *             *

I run the water very very very hot
And then I fill the sink to the top with bubbles of soap
And then I set all the bottle caps I own afloat
And it’s the greatest voyage in the history of plastic 
`Music Box-Regina Spektor

What if there’s nothing more to us?
We’re just carbon-based.
We’re just pixie dust.
What if life is a magic trick?
Some quick slight of hand just to make us think.
What if consciousness can’t expand
And we fool ourselves with absurd demands?
What if there is no point at all?
We just grow up to fade away.
~Skin & Bones|Motion City Soundtrack

I had a dream
Crispy crispy Benjamin Franklin came over
Baby-sat all four of my kids
~Chemo Limo|Regina Spektor

the genius of spektor

“Consequence Of Sounds”

My rhyme ain’t good just yet, My brain and tongue just met,
And they ain’t friends, so far, My words don’t travel far,
They tangle in my hair, And tend to go nowhere,
They grow right back inside, Right past my brain and eyes
Into my stomach juice Where they don’t serve much use,
No healthy calories, Nutrition values.
And I absorb back in The words right through my skin
They sit there festering inside my bowels

The consonants and vowels
The consequence of sounds
The consonants and vowels
The consequence of sounds

Got a soundtrack in my mind, All the time. Kids-
Screamin’ from too much beat up And they don’t even rhyme,
They just stand there, on a street corner, Skin tucked in
And meat side out and shot, And I’d like to turn them down
But there ain’t no knob. Run into picket fences
Not into picket lines. All this hippie-shit for the 60’s
And another clich© for our time. But, But a one of these days your heart
Will just stop ticking, And they sorta just don’t find you till your cubicle is reeking.

The consonants and vowels
The consequence of sounds
The consonants and vowels
The consequence of sounds
Ahh ah ah ah ahh ah ah ah

Did you know that the gravedigger’s still Gettin’ stuck in the machine
Even tough it’s a whole other daydream. It’s another town it’s another world,
Where the kids are asleep, where the loans are paid And the lawns are mowed.
Whad’ya think? All the gravediggers were gone?
Just cause one song is done There’s always another one,
Waiting right around the bend, Till this one ends,
Then it begins Squeaky clean, then it starts all over again.

The weather report keeps on Tossing and turning,
Predicting and warning, And warning and warning of,
Possible leakage from news publications and, Possible leakage from news TV stations.
That very same morning right next to her coffee She noticed some bleeding and heard hollow coughing and
National Geographic was being too graphic, When all she had wanted to know was the traffic
“The worlds got a nosebleed” it said “And we’re flooding but we keep on cutting
The trees and the forests!” And we keep on paying those freaks on the TV,
Who claim they will save us but want to enslave us. And sweating like demons they scream through our speakers
But we leave the sound on ’cause silence is harder. And no one’s the killer and no one’s the martyr
The world that has made us can no longer contain us And profits are silent then rotting away ’cause

The consonants and vowels
The consequence of sounds.
The consonants and vowels
The consequence of sounds.
Ah ah ah…

The consonants and vowels
The consequence of sounds
The consonants and vowels
The consequence of sounds